I LIKE.....

I like to see chio bus...
I like to see how they dress...
I like to see wat make them so chio....
I hope i can be like them...

Conclusion...
Most chio bus are fair....
I am not fair...
Most chio bus spend time to doll themselves up..
I lazy to doll myself up...

I AM NOT CHIO BU...


Well, but i know my bf always like me to doll myself up.. then he'll say he can use me to hao lian. got a "chio" gf... but then... i lazy to doll myself up leh... still need to make up... lazy.. but nowadays better, coz go work at least everytime got put foundation n blusher.. sometimes mascara.. seldom eye liner.. seldom eye shadow.. seldom lipstick.. anyways lipstick is for me to eat right???

Ok... in order to make my bf happier... i will TRY to make up before i go out.... but of coz if go far far place la... if ask me go lot 1, bpp or eat supper... pls la.. i think i wont even bother to wear contact lense.. just wear my ku ku specs out.. SETTLE....

I want my bf to love me more... so i will do what he likes... so he'll love me more rite??? I'll wear the clothes he likes, i'll tie my hair the way he likes ( but normally i oso never tie my hair.. faint), i'll bring the bag he likes, i'll act the way he likes...

FAINT.... so not me....

But blog only ma... haha.. whether will do it onot... oso different story... but i'll try la... hahaa..



I LIKE.....

I like meaty meaty guy...... so nice to hug....
I like big eyes guy...... but so far all my bfs eyes small small with single eye lids...
I like man man guy..... guys who are not garang stay away fr me....
I like guys with rough hands... so manly.....
I like LIM ZI MING....

Lalalala...

I think i really need to start working... if not all these nonsenses will be all around my head...

Anyways.... just scanned one pic for dean to see.... might as well share the joy... haha... Super funny pic... taken during my jc days.



See... i'm as dark as indian.... I dont know how to smile properly... faint..

Me and gerard did a flyer for bedok new project... but we drop the idea now coz too far fr us.. which one nicer???





Once again ming said obviously is gerard one nicer.. haiz..

Haven been working lately... slacked for almost a week.. faint.. lousy work attitude...

haiz.. sometimes ah.. i was thinking, with this kind of lousy discipline, am i suitable for self-employed job ah? faint.. so slack.. slack until ming see already also not happy.. faint...

2 nights ago, my cousin in NY asked me when i'm getting married.. i said.. not so soon... then immediately the next morning, another cousin of mine oso asked me the same question.. faint..

I told ming abt tis thing.. he said, this yr let me go, somemore i left only 2 weeks to work, then i'll be going off for holiday... he said, if next yr i can earn $100,000... then can get married.. faint.. well, this sum is actually to achieve for my job.. but with my attitude??? wait for Mr Tan... Tan Koo Koo.....

Just visited Juan's blog .. she posted a lot more of our crazy pics.. faint...

Few months ago, that's some human god fr duno which temple came to our house to see feng shui.. he told my mum that there will be xi shi (joyous occassion) coming oct (chinese calendar) and another one next yr.... Well, we already know wat is the xi shi then when he told us, coz we know my sis will be giving birth in oct mah.. duno how he knows... coz nobody told him that my sis is pregnant. shrug...

Then my mum kept wondering what will be another xi shi next yr... she said cannot be i'll be getting married bah... then i still remembered i said that's crazy... i told her maybe my sis will have another baby...

I forgot all abt this after that...

ziming's mum often go temple to ask god stuffs on weekend... suddenly last weekend ziming's mum told ming

" God ask u dun always play stocks ah... save some money... god said u going to settle down next year ah...."

Faint...

different god, but predicted almost the same thing.. faint..

We dun have any thoughts of getting married next yr leh.. too soon le..

Anyways, we started to joke abt it.. he said if really next yr getting married, must be a shotgun case.... "'-_- Diaoz... This is Insane....

celebrated yinghui's bday on the 17/11/07... had lunch at bpp.. some hk cafe which juan claims that it's a resturant and yh claims that it's a hawker center.. faint...

had crazy photo sessions... too much to post, decided to post those ugly pics only.. haha



faint...



we snapped some funny pics...



juan's excellence photo taking skills...



yh n juan trying to act demure.... haha



can puke....



who's that head??? faint...



pose pose.... bee failed as a model...



i think bee looks like a teddy in this pic.. wahahhahaa...



bee only wants to see hp... ignored me... upset....

wahhaa.. faint...

23/11/07

Attented my cousin's soleminsation at chervons...







the whole process is being video-ed by me... too long to post...

I'm still feeling so down.. sianz..

cried everytime when i thought of that.. idiot.

followed wat liang'er did... I deleted his friendster... but his email is stuck at my head.. mb i'll block he's msn soon.. Met up with him last few mths.. My name in his hp is still "lao po" I think now he comfirm changed it. Mb i'll delete his number too. but it's still in my head. hope he changes his number soon n dont tell me abt that.

my pics are gone for gd. her pics are up for gd.

I went to read her profile. Dont think she's a fantastic girl. To me, her life is damn boring. Dont think i'm in a gd position to comment abt her. But she seems to be single for v long.. not that pretty.. not smart either. Dont think she's a popular girl. Not much friends n very little testi. Fr her testimonial, many says she dances well.. she's going to complete her ballet exams.. Well, i also can dance.. i danced for 7 yrs. though confirm not as gd as her, but i also going to complete my piano exam. Going be a piano teacher soon by 2009.

Why am i compairing myself to her? FUCK.

I'm not going to think abt it like wat juan told me to. What for? I made my choice n he made his. Mr lim treat me well.. I wan to force mr lim to marry me fast so i can completely forget abt him. I know it's unfair to mr lim. But just let it be my darkest secret. anyways mr lim is still not ready. At least another 2 or 3 yrs. By then.. i dont know wat will happen. I envy those frenz ard me who are going to get married.

Anyways, who says one must marry to someone whom u love most? Let's face it. We're not living in fairy tales. Things are not as beautiful as those tales. Cinderella, Snow white, Jasmine, Belle, etc, all live happily ever after.. But i'm not any of them.

I admit i like mr lee v much coz he's always so tender to me, gives me wat i wants, love me whole heartedly. Everybody ard me all felt that i'm so bliss with such a nice bf. But those are in the past.

Why i left him?

Coz our relationship is so boring. I thought i dun love him anymore coz meeting him is such a norm. We're stagnant there. Not moving anywhere.. Mb we're just too young. Another thing is i cannot accept that he's not ambitious. I mean, He's a guy u know.. Everytime only vebrally said that he wants to provide to his family, wants this, wants that, wants to sign up for local uni, etc etc... But he always no action one! everytime need me to push him. Just earlier this yr, i kept pushing him to go read up those uni stuffs n better take note of the dates. Finally he got some actions. But too late. he missed it.. SEE..... I cant marry to this kind of guy!! Though many say if u love someone, u must love his negetive pts too.. But i just cant accept this. So aimless..

Mr Lim is different. Though obviously he's not as tender, not as caring, not as sensitive, not as sweet, but he knows wat he wants. At least i got a sense of security, well, not becoz he's so BIG, but he does his things well. He's smarter than me, always teaches me stuffs, knows wat's happening around the world. He always plan things ahead. He always got an aim. He scolded me when i'm in wrong (Mr lee never do this, he just let me do whatever i wan). Most imptly, he loves me so.

Wah... won't it be nice if i got combination of them?? heee.. Wah.... If i got a bf who is smart and intelligent and knowlegeble and sweet and active and healty and romantic and sensitive and understands me and handsome and talented and filial and popular and ambitious and caring and most imptly love me deep deep... Wah... then i'll grab him and put inside my pocket and keep zip it up and keep him to myself. Does this kind of guy exist?? Heee...

I feel better now after i reminded myself y i dun wan to be with mr lee..

I shall treasure wat i have now..

Thks juan n bee for consoling me... Thks to my partner mr goh for teasing me abt this thing.. he said it's a norm. Thks ck for trying to cheer me up, but it doesnt help if u keep saying u miss me n love me and tell me u dont love ur gf n tell me those nonsenscial stuffs. This guy is one of the kind oso.. so funny.. he dun even know me well, still says he likes me.. says i'm a prefect girl for him.. he duno my true colours la.. so many yrs already. During jc days he dun even dare to talk to me. Gave me chocolate during my bday then run away. crazy... now think of it.. quite funny, but sweet. ended up i shared the chocolate with my classmates. haha..

Wat a long entry.... Hee.. going prawning now.. ciaoz..

I love mr lim.. (hmmm... must keep brainwash myself n remind myself.. hee)

Happy 1 n 1/2 yr anniversary...

My mum is one of the kind... she always complaint that she hates it when my sis returned to our home without first informing her. Becoz she need strain n cook more dishes.

After my sis gave birth, my mum always wanna go n visit my sis at amk. She told me that we shall go visit my sis today, but dont tell my sis abt it. Why?? Her reason is becoz she wants to follow wat my sis had done to her...

STUPID

So, just now happily my mum cooked those confinment meals... and she purposely went to market to buy those thermal container.

Off we go to sis's place..

While on the car, i still feel that wat mum is doing is so idiotic.. so i decided to sms my sis to inform her that we're on our way there n that mum had cooked some dishes for her.

Finally after we parked our car at the multi storey carpark, i saw my sis's reply " huh. today willis very busy leh. can don't come today? why never ask earlier? he bought all the food for today liao."

Well, so i told my mum abt the reply n she called sis. I duno wat the fuck they're talking abt. Conclusion is, my sis refused to let us go up to her place even though we reached amk already. She asked us to go home. My mum kept emphasised that she wants to see her grandson, nvm if willis is busy and she already cooked those confinment dishes for her already. Finally my sis said " ok, u bring those dishes up, but not going to open the door. just pass me the dishes.."

Faint.. Today i was very upset abt the bad news already, and yet my mum n sis are doing things to hurt each other. stupid.

My mum ended up drove off and we ate those confinment dishes at home. She refused to jus bring up n pass through those stuffs, through the gate, n to my sis. Both my sis n mum are just so weird.. Didnt have chance to talk to my sis regarding this matter till now. But while driving back, i knew my mum was damn upset n the kept complaining throughout the journey, n she got tears in her eyes...

Well, wat can i say? I think my mum deserve it. Already told her not to do this kind of stunt. My sis also attitude la.. Mum only wanna see her grandson, then spent effort to cook n prepare dishes for her own good, yet she refused.

As for me? Waste my time to travel down to amk with my mum. Felt so down already. Kept thinking abt stupid wh while on the journey. Well, i guess one wont treasure a person unless the person really left u. Until now, my pic is still on wh's friendster. Today, the girl's pic is up there too.. but it's a grp photo. think my frenz are all v kpo one. so just tell u all that the girl is 2nd person fr left. She's fr sim.. but i never seen her b4. i think soon after, my pics will be gone for good... :(

Feeling so terrible now.. wh just told me he got attached... instantly i got a headache n heartache n teared when he told me.. it's just so painful...... i'm such an asshole..

Mr Lim said that the cat which my bro drew is nicer than mine.... ..

FINALLY I AM A REAL AUNTY!!!!





My sis gave boy to a baby boy this morning at around 4am plus...



hao n baby..



dad n baby..



mum n baby...



sis n her baby...

So cute......


Baby Crying... haha...

Today kanghao never go sch... during afternoon time, me n hao are bored.. so we decided to draw some pics...



We decided to draw the TOM and JERRY...



my little bro quite talented rite?? he draw the Tom until quite nice, but he couldn't figure how to draw the jerry, so ended up drew a piglet.. hahaha... Tom and Pig.. faint..



This is my master pic... not bad rite? at least look like Tom and Jerry....

Check out this clip.... damn funny... hahhaa.... my life... my song....

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ujH9NjjCwsU