Tuesday, August 31, 2004
YEAH~~ haha... finally finish changing the blog template.. now my head big big.. edited the template for the all afternoon.. it may be easy for IT students.. BUT I'M A BIO STUDENT!! haha... find myself so smart.. but i really put in tears n blood one leh.. even it's onli editing onli the html... well... finished is hubby's "assignement"... read thru all my entries n ask myself "wat do i see in mel tt makes me wanna like him.." well well.. after reading thru.. i duno leh.. haha.. mb becoz of his ku-ku-ness? haha... now neck pain pain.. stare at computer too long.. anyway juan juan pls tell me wat mel had told xian... i really wanna know....
feel so great juz now tt hubby dean n CK called to check out on me.. asking how am i? haha.. tt means still a lot of ppl concern abt me ya.. haha.. coz i'm a gd gal mah.. BHB again.. hee hee... anyway so happy now.. coz changed the template... haha.. going to fetch hao hao home now.. mama chit chatting on phone.. haha.. cya tonitez~~~
asked mel to come bac online as i felt like telling him how i feel... but he said he dun wan to switch on pc again.. can see tt i'm nowhere in his heart.. juz finished reading CK's email.. "i can tell u tt i really, really miss u lot lots... haiz.. i dun even mind u ugly or wat... just like the feeling to be with u or seeing u, hehee... Well, hope next time, i can be more free then... haiz..." tis is wat he wrote.. well.. wat to do? so wat he kept saying he misses me n stuffs... he still got his gf.. weiwei last nite oso keep saying miss me n love me a lot a lot.. keeping smsing me n asked me if i love him onot... i didnt reply... i duno wat to say.. duno wat i want...
why cant mel treat me the way they treated me??
teMp sTaff>>> not all are here.. some onli worked on few days.. took on the last day
whitE T>>> cashIers...
JOn>>> same bday as me... hee hee.. 14/2..
whitE T>>> cashIers...
JOn>>> same bday as me... hee hee.. 14/2.. 
feeling sad now.. coz toking to mel in msn now.. haiz.. anyway nvm.. trying to catch up wif my blog...
Day 3: my sales was gd man~~ 6 sales... haha.. happy happy.. then juan came n look for me, bought me milo, i requested one lar, shaf n simon came too, shaf bought me sushi n bread, tis one i didnt request.. still got who huh.. ya.. yifan.. haiz... game over for juan n fan too... so juan now same status as me.. hee hee.. anyway then i rushed down to kaiqin's bday.. des took cab wif me... a few of them there lor.. shuyan n zhu zhu went off not long after i reached.. still got thomas, alan n gf, jiaming n casey.. casey v handsome sia.. anyway jiaming n casey said qin's sec sch gal-frenz not bad.. anyway thomas sent me home.. roughly like tt lor... time reached home: 1am
Day 4: last day~~~ hee.. got 6 sales too.. but one is cable one.. duno how much commission.. anyway today more ppl came.. saw shuyan, jiaming, wayne, kaiqin, thomas, ziming, kuanping, ken, jonathon, jon... anyway idiot casey didnt come.. he said he wanna come one.. both days ricky didnt work.. no chance to see him le lar.. but jefferson left me a deep impression sia.. nvm... then we took some pics.. hee hee... waited v long for all to knock off, but ended up onli few of others went for supper... wen, xuan, chong, bro des n me onli.. went to chinatown to eat frog leg porridge.. hee heee... tok cab wif bro des again.. time reached home:2am
today: notig much lar.. went to AF today lor.. sat wif shaf they all.. then xuan came in after break.. then reach home slp slp slp.. then play piano.. then online lor.. notig much.. except mel spoilt my day again.. haiz....
Saturday, August 28, 2004
today i got onli 1 sale! sian man...koaz.. ku ku lor.. a lot of renewal ones.. then no commission.. then ricky always eat snake.. cannot bio him... i find he not bad leh, but xuan n serene both say he looked like weiwei.. got weiwei's pattern, then he's name is ricky lor.. my first bf's name... hee hee.. but duno where he always go ah.. sian sia
juz now went home wif xuan's jon.. haha.. found out tt he's bday same as me sia.. not bad leh.. both v day, but he's one yr younger then me lar.. he oso quite yandao sia.. look like casey.. haha.. too bad he travel until commonwealth onli.. but enough lar.. gave him my icq n exchanged hp numbers... then after sian all the way... last nite shaf still send me until my house.. haha... tik he still haven forget me sia.. poor tigy him...
anyway hope my sale will be better tml lor.. at least 3... haiz... but tml des cuming.. not bad.. bro n acc me tok cok.. hee hee.. hui hui jia you~~~
Friday, August 27, 2004
yesterday too tired to blog ah.. so angry wif mel sia... idiot.. anyway for abt it.. luckily jiaming called n chit chat wif me... if not i sure call up mel to quarrel.. hee hee... anyway now ok le lar... got chat a bit in the morning...
anyway today is comex fair day one.. i've got 3 sales!!! yeah... heehee.. the fair is full of SIM students sia... all temp staff... but i'm happy lar.. then working wif xuan.. though she a bit nua.. but she oso got 3 sales lar.. heehee... today most sales is 4 lor.. so we're close to it.. anyway i tik it will be fun lar.. i mean working wif pac net... i feel more myself comparing to doing camps lor.. then serene v funny lor... need to wear the stupid jersey uniform.. hee hee. then need to tk the damn heavy sign board n walk ard.. haha... v funny leh... hee hee.. mich at sony, jenny at fuji, sharon at some mp3 booth... then starhub like got a lot of SIM one lor... countless... didnt count... still got grace duno sell wat.. hee hee....
juz now tok to my scandal, xiao ming, asked me 2 days to call him le.. but lazy leh.. actually juz now dun feel like toking to him one.. but paiseh mah.. cannot reject him too many times.. wait he dun let me do camps.. heehee... ok lar... quite a boring chit chat section... so tired man.. stand whole day... tml will be a better day!! tml i'll have 10 sales!!! haha... but v hard lar.. coz tml fri... haiz.. he ehee... all the best hui hui~~ muack!!!!
Wednesday, August 25, 2004
haha...today... morning wakey wakey.. then go for piano lesson... then reached home.. actually need to rush to dad's office to help him one.. ms see off for 10 days.. then me tired ah... become pig pig... oink oink.. heeeheee.. slp slp... then ended up late late.. 2.30pm then wakey to eat lunch... by the time stepped out fr home is like 3pm le lor... then mama went to buy some hair oil for baba... then hee hee... no enough time ah...
then on car... me n mama quarrel ah... she lor... v petty.. i said weiwei's mama cooked the can soup i bought for them during CNY, then she starts nagging.... say wat girls shldn't give gifts.. weiwei oso didnt give them gifts... aiya... mum is always so cheapo.. cannot stand her...
anyway ended cant go up to office lar... met xuan at bona vista at 4.30pm.. we're early for the briefing.. then brief the same tigy lor.. onli 3 gers.. then wanna us to wear costome.. diao diao.. all 3 of us dun wan...hee hee... comic costume... anyway helped des to get a place.. so happy.. can work wif him again...
saw alan during my trip home.. heee heee.. so happy.. he's still my dear dear alan... didnt change.. like him so much sia... all of us going for qin's bday... still duno wat to buy for him.. haiz...
anyway tml meeting alan to go to work.... juz now vincent then say need a person to help him in paper work tml... i'm going... not going for the lect le... mon then go lor.. wat to do.. earn money... hee hee... going to slp le... anyway hoped juan is fine... drop me a comment if u're fine k? tk care... ciaoz...
Tuesday, August 24, 2004
yeah~~ home at last... been away fr tue for darman high sec 2 camp n odac's nite cycling... those are cool man~~ hee hee... though tired lar.. but really lar.. me too bz to tik of stuffs...
camp wif seals sports.. expected lar.. muz do a lot of sia gan... tiring mah... but the students orh... stunning ah.. v good... 2nd batch of campers i like.. other then the bukit panjang pri one.. but shit lar... kana pointed out by jacky.. say low elements no quality.. sian... forgot to ask them to tk out watches... haiz... hope can do for the upcoming camp lor...
the nite cycling orh... i tik will stay in my mind for a v long time ah... super tiring lor.. hee hee... can die lar.. then 1st day auntie visit oso.. then the nite b4 oso didnt slp... ended up need my freshies to tk care of me.. hee hee.. the chalet was fun too... spended nite wif sheng, des, anni, aldeline n emund... fun sia...
then sunday went to watch AVP wif xuan they all... the movie suxs again... haiz.. then weiwei came to my house to find me at nite... went supper wif him... hee hee...
well well... the fact is i still tik of mel somtimes lar... not rarely le.. then these days.. he onli sent me one fdw sms lor... duno wat does it means anyway.. late le... koon... heeheee.. ciaoz~~
Tuesday, August 17, 2004
Duno y yesterday cant blog, anyway yesterday was a bad bad one for me... coz mel keeps appearing into my mind... I missed him so much... wondering if he got miss me onot...
Anyway today was a v tiring one... no time practically to tik of anyone... met xuan at 7.25am at amk.. we went to coasta sands together to have a training section wif seals sports... xiao ming conducted the training... it’s super duper sian lor... tok all the cok... learnt how to built raft... anyway we got chance to try the 12 feet wall.. shiok man.. haha... we got everybody up.. even a guy which is more then 100kgs.. haha... power sia...
Then at 3.30pm... eddie n glenn gave the camp briefing... wow.. I was so tired tt I kept falling aslp while eddie is toking lor.. haha... duno he got notice onot.. hee hee.. but I’m ok when glenn tk over.. hee hee... heng ah.. then me, xuan, grace n guanping went to downtown east to eat kfc... tok a lots of gossips ah.. cannot tahan... hee hee.. then weiwei came bac to town.. xuan went to fetch him then drop us at amk mrt station... so sweet of her... haha...
Anyway tml wun have chance to blog until Sunday le.. I’ll have a bz wk... wun have time to tik abt mel... Yesterday my heart was so empty... tml meeting weiwei for sushi buffet.. yummy.. hee hee.. then go coasta sands to stay over n to prepare for the camp... Jia you huihui~~
Monday, August 16, 2004
today is sunday... mel really didnt contact me... he wasn't really to face me.. he kept appearing into my mind.. now then i know how weiwei felt when i dun wan him.. i can feel the pain... the emptiness inside the heart... tgt of him almost evert moment... i tik he still go n put curtain inside he's room, duno izzit tt i tik too much, if it's really so, i'll be damn disappointed wif him...
i'm tiking... why izzit tt he's so mean? suddenly push me into the cold castle.. so sudden.. without any warning... if onli i tok to him on phone on thurs nite.. dun tik we'll be in tis situation... miss him so much.. but yet hate him so much..
went out to have dinner wif parents.. went JE.. i kept looking amough the crowd.. hope i can see him.. so stupid n naive of me... tgt i dun have feeling for him.. am i wrong? wat am i going to do if he msg me one day? he said he will... am i going to reply? i'm so lost now... really miss him a lot... keep looking out for him fr my window.... he's aslp now...
tml going for the seals sports training.. will last the whole day cum the briefing.. hope i'll put him behind my mind... tis wk will be a bz one.. got camps n chalets.. i'm looking fdw for them... a great chance to aid me... to fill the emptiness... and to forget him.....
Sunday, August 15, 2004
feeling really terrible tis morning.. i actually cried... haiz.. wat to do? called jiaming.. wanna him to acc me.. but he got course.. he's in the MLM tigy le... haiz.. anyway i cried a bit when toking to jiaming, but he didnt know... juz told me he's not free... ended up asked kaiqin to go out..
he came fetch me at 1.30pm wif his bike.. meet him at the rd side.. then super suay, yang came home... then asked him not to tell parents.. anyway went to town to shop ard.. saw a lot of frenz... ingird, sean n fren, wanling, bayu, geng feng, brandan n fren, shuwen... so many... anyway ended up we bought notig.. actually wanna go von's house, but then she quite late then reach home, so went to qin's house 1st... then slack ard.. then ended up von said she a bit sick ah.. cannot mk it.. then i ku ku slack at qin's house.. then we went to makan dinner at 10pm.. qin lao sia.. waited for him at the hawer there... then ended up he cannot tahan.. returned to his house again to lao.. then i slack ard again... then abt 11plus pm then he sent me home.. dropped me at the rd side again... heehee.. cannot let mama papa see.... didnt mention anytig abt mel...
tt's my day today... day without mel... day without weiwei.... oso like tt... mel... juz a stepping stone for me bah... it's such a short period of time... i believe i'll forget him real soon... del him fr my friendster.. del testi for each other... blocking him fr icq n msn too ba... but duno how to block..haiz...sianz.. ended up blocked juan.. test test mah.. then duno how to unblock.. joke of the day... haha... haiz... anyway.. life goes on without u.....
Saturday, August 14, 2004
he juz sent me an email which he sent me yesterday but i didnt recieve.. juz read finish... it's so hurting.. so so so hurting... let me cry over it once n for all.............
hard to describe how i feel now.. ended up i gave him a mms.. asking him y izzit tt he's ignoring me...
wat did he replied? " i'm formatting my pc now. i didnt ignore u, juz wanna be alone.."
why cant he juz give me a tgt? y dun he cares how i feel?
juan asked me to search my heart... where to search??? i duno... feeling so lost one...
mb i shld be alone too.................
shaf is trying to cheer me up.... asking wanna go out wif him tml onot... y juz cant he treat me tis way? y izzit the person i wan dun wan me? then the person i dun wan keep showing concern to me? shaf know it's impossible b/w us ... haiz..
headache..... i SHALL be alone...
Friday, August 13, 2004
in the afternoon, ended up i msged him... today he onli reply me when i msged him.. he said he's stress.. but duno y...
until now... he didnt initiate even one sms for me....
i tik i've to stop all these tigs le.. y make myself so miserable? he didnt even put me into his heart.. y shld i bother so much abt him? i shall forget him.. but it'll tk some time bah... but dun tik it'll be long.. i wun waste effort on ppl who dun loves me...
we'll shall be frenz again... not dating partners.. if got chance.. i'll tell him... soon....
anyway wat i tgt last nite maybe true lor... i'm onli a v small tini mini part in his heart.. yesterday morning.. he forgot to give me a morning msg.. then ard 10 plus then msg me... but today neh....
until now.. not a single msg fr him................
today duno y so slpy... i keep on slping.. morning wakey.. abt 11am.. then eat.. read newspaper. then wait for lunch... then wait wait wait.. then i go bed slp again... slp slp slp.. then went out wif mama.. go banks.. then went to IMM to makan... giant walk walk.. michelle working there now.. haha.. chit chat a bit.. then walk walk walk.. then home sweet home.. then v sian... slp again.. waiting for juan's call.. wanna go palm garben to swim.. haha.. then met her at ard 8pm.. we went swimming, then jacuzzi... then stream rm.. wow.. machiam tai tai.. haha... asked mel whether wanna come down onot... then he said dun wan.. see me online... but after sometime msg me again.. say he cannot tok to me on phone or online le.. computer cok up... then say going to rest soon.. haiz.. like tt lor... learnt dun give him expectations... anyway watch tv.. the yin-yang shi n life is a miracle.. nice show man.. sad show.. see le cry cry cry.. but i oso tik thru somtig... suddenly realise y shld i need mel? actually no need lor.. can sense tt he dun really like me oso.. y muz i spend effort on him? rather spend more time on ppl who loves me more? tik tt he didnt even appreciate me.. haiz... anyway.. i oso duno lar... see how lor...
Wednesday, August 11, 2004
last nite chat wif qijun until 3am ah.. then today slp until 11am then wakey... haha... then today the AF quite interesting leh... Assets= liabilities + Equity.. haha... diao diao.. then at break time... our biting time sia... meiyan bite me.. i bite xuan... xuan bite bac meiyan.. haha.. then play play play.. then play until pour tea on my head.. haha... then actually my hubby dean wanna me acc him to eat dinner in town tonite.. but too bad i have to meet mel.. actually he wanna jog one.. but ended up he lazy ahh... then we onli had dinner at lot1.. but i eat at home lar.. then we go walk walk... bought sweet fr minitoons.. haha... v funny.. haha.. then i bought jay's ablum in sembawang... yeah... so happy... we had a fun time i would say... then we walked home... ta boa beanflower home.. haha.. but i didnt give him gdbye kiss... oh it was sad... haha... hope to see him soon again.....
Tuesday, August 10, 2004
ahhhh.... sad ah sad ah... went swim swim wif juan.. hoping to see my dream guy>>> patrick at cck sports complex.. AAHHHHHHhhh... today he no lesson!!!!!!!! ahhhh oH IT WAS SAD..........
haha.. it's 39th birthday of singapore orh... happy happy.. tgt mum said wanna go wild wild wet or sentosa in the morning.. but nobody wakey.. haha.. then ended up i realised tt sis is not going to follow them.. wanna go find her hubby, then i oso sian.. so i went to find my weiwei.. meet him at bladder... v far ah.. y live so far.. sian.. sit until my butt pain.. but ok lar.. coz got free mms.. then i keep playing ard wif my phone.. then reach le.. went ta poa laska n tehC ping for lunch.. actually weiwei wanna me go makan his home food one.. then is stingray leh.. i eat until sian.. then his flat.. ok lar.. v nice.. i like it v much.. haha.. spacious too.. windy in the living rm.. but in kitchen a bit like oven.. haha.. i eat laska until dehydrate..haha.. tok cok.. then slack ard.. feel really slpy... keep yawning..then kana seen by his mama.. haha.. so paishe.. then dad collect me at newton.. while weiwei continue his journey to pasir ris.. actually wanna acc him one... but the time can't coordenate wif baba.. he's going for field camp tis wk ah.. i tik 2 wkend cannot come out.. so poor tig.. then we went to the safra town club to collect some barangs.. then went to marina south.. haha.. so shiok.. wait for fireworks.. then my new harmok become ground sheet like tt.. haiz.. then tried to call mel... tt pig didnt pick up the phone.. tgt he's slping.. but no lar.. he's watching tv.. anyway the fireworks.. shiok ah.. but i didnt enjoy it v much, coz i bzing videoing them.. then ended up i admire them thru the LCD screen fr my digi cam.. ku ku... then after tt went to the hawker opp great world makan dinner.. damn hungry sia.. then home sweet home.. quicky took out the harmok n tie.. haha. shiok.. too bad cant see much stars.. then got miracle ah.. mel asked me wanna chat on phone onot.. haha.. 1st time sia.. but actually i sense sometig wrong leh..tgt he wanna break some bad news for me.. ended no lar.. me tik too much.. then tok cok.. cok cok cok again.. then he wanna watch tv... ok lor.. then i asked him whether still like me onot.. koaz... duno y ask oso... so so so so so so so paiseh actually.. haha.. but curiousity kills the cat.. wat to do? "ya lar.. why?" is his ans.. coz i still dun quite understand y he dun wan to have a relationship wif me if he likes me.. anyway i said nvm lar.. the show started le.. the jacky wu show... then we happily watching tv ever after....... haha......
Monday, August 09, 2004
today... wakey late... then eat breakfast... slack ard.. then go lot 1 wif parents n sis to delifrance to eat lunch.. nicey nicey... then met mel to ECP to watch fireworks.. after spending abt 2 hrs.. we finally reached there... makan.. then we rent bike to cycle.. 8-10pm.. we cycle until the v end... koaz.. u know wat? cycle the wrong way lor.. cannot see fireworks.. ku ku lar.. see onli a bit bit.. really is a bit bit onli.. coz kana blocked by trees le.. anyway... we sit at the jetty there.. blow wind.. really enjoy the quiet moment wif him... then saw the neo-cards he took wif he's ex gf.. she looks v young lor.. anyway i forgot how old is she le.. slack ard.. then we cycle bac... walk walk a bit.. then find a spot to sit now.. how i wish he will like put his hands ard me or wat... haiz.. but he didnt lar.. then finally i asked him.. y izzit always i am the one who initiate to hold him.. then he said it's not rite lor.. blah blah blah.. then suddenly he told me actually he dun wish to have relationship for the time being.. at 1st duno how to react ah... but then when i tik twice.. i oso got told myslef wun get into relationship so soon.. i told him tis lor.. at tt time.. mind still blank blank.. but now suddenly a lots of tgts rushing in... " doesn it means he dun like me fr the start? if like, y wouldn't want a relationship wif me?" " everytig i did are wasted lor.. i'm really trying to like him leh... " blah blah blah... suddenly realise it's quite unfair.. i tgt all along we'll have chance to be together.. but wat to do? dream shattered le ... anyway i oso dun wan to have commitment.. haiz.. contridicting.. anyway.. then we fool ard.. play ard... then tk cab home lor.. the journey home is so sweet... we keep holding hands.. then he wanna to read my blog so much.. then gave me a peck on my cheek.. cannot actually feel it though.. haha.. too fast n sudden... then he said he feel like kiss me leh or rather wanna me to kiss him back.... but it's against my principal leh.. anyway since he dun wan to have relationship wif me... y kiss? aiya.. then i dun wan dun wan.. until reach home le. haha.. but in the end gues wat? i gave him a kiss haha.. too fast he complaint.. but cannot lar.. scare my parents n neighbours see.. so paiseh.. at tt moment.. we're so much like a couple.. yet we're not.. i duno wat i wan.. n i duno wat he wants.. but nevertheless... today is a enjoyable one.. sweetie sweetie day... n opps.. i did sometig against my principle.. somemore he's not my potential le.. haiz.. happy or sad? i duno.................. everytig is gone.... dun tik too much... juz live on.......... try enjoy every moment wif him b4 he sian ba...
Sunday, August 08, 2004
morning.. wakey... so sianz... wait for calls fr wh n mel.. surprisingly dean called to ask abt my cough.. sweetie.. then ended up watched The Notebook.. nice show man.. a Must Watch show.. then we had some food in the foodcourt... mel told me some turn off tigs again.. say dun give him expectations.. i'll onli have no expectations to someone who's not impt in my heart lor.. haiz.. diff perpective ya... anyway moody moody..saw xian.. he oso moody moody.. haha.. but after sometime i ok le lar.. then we continue to walk walk at west mall.. it's so exciting... coz at some moments we'll hold hand for a few secs.. haha.. mb 1 or 2 secs onli ba.. haha.. at moments i'll oso cling on him.. but tt one notig lar.. coz i oso cling wif my closer frenz one.. haiz.. then he wanna send me home coz he's meeting his madson buddies.. then on car then realise the meeting is 9pm lor.. then still got like 30mins more.. then we go cck garden slack ard... the feeling is so sweet... but not v romantic lar.. coz the way he speaks oso not romantic one.. haha.. cant forget the moment when we sat on bench... sweeta sweeta.. then home.. dean called me again.. chat a bit.. haha.. 1st time dean called me leh.. special.. but anyway today is a special special day... coz got hold hand wif my dating partner a bit... a bit is enough le.... miss him so much now.... feeling getting stronger.... hope it will grow for both of us ba......
Saturday, August 07, 2004
today started fine... went cine to meet up wif shaf to eat sushi buffet.. cine was damn crowded.. he was quite quiet at first.. felt funny... but later.. he's bac to the old shaf.. anyway we had a v filling lunch.. haha... then we went to watch the village.. not nice lar.. sux again... anyway met justin n lewis after the movie... went to eat billy boomers... haha.. 1st time.. so happy.. but i was damn full lar.. didnt eat much oso.. then went home.. i took 190 alone.. mel asked me need to send me home fr cck onot.. of coz i said no lar... then he said "comfirm?" koaz... i wan to kill him ah.. then i said yup.. then like tt leh.. then he said ok lor.. koaz... really disappointed wif him.. koaz... then after somtime i msged him.. tgt he reached home le.. said i v disappointed in him.. then he called me.. he haven reach home.. then in the end he said he send me home... waited for him at cck CC.. waited almost like 10 mins.. koaz... then on car... silence.. then i looked at him.. cannot control... i still smiled.. he drove super slow ah... wanna be together for longer time ba.. i looked at him.. cannot tahan.. smiled again.. stupid me.. then broke the slience lor... asked him y didnt stay at his camp.. then reach home not long after... sis using the pc.. cannot online tok to him.. then he asked me got miss him today onot.. thru sms lar.. then i said a bit lor.. then said can sense tt he didnt miss me really much.. coz i tik he didnt even bother to ask me to call him.. then he replied he got tik of me pracitcally the whole day.. koaz.. then if true, y dun he ask me to call him? i told him tis.. then he sent me a v nonsensal msg.. saying.. we cannot tok everyday, wat pure missing is thru heart, chatting doesn't sig missing.. rather had occasional call. if not will get bored.. koaz... duno y i really felt fed up... coz last msg i still got tell him i feel like toking to him.. then he give me tis kind of ku ku msg.. i dun believe in tis lor.. then y me n weihwa can tok to each other everyday? koaz.. we haven even been together then he scare we'll feel bored.. kns.. really kns.. i duno wat's in his brain.. cannot accept tis.. free oso cannot chat... kns kns kns.. somemore i got tell him i feel like toking to him leh.. koaz.. next time if he wants to chat wif me.. i'll not chat wif him... koaz......... spoilt my day.........
Friday, August 06, 2004
today spent a lot sia.. woke up late.. then promise to help out at the booth... then took cab down SIM.. $6.. then went there.. paid for the nite cycling trip.. $25.. then xuan told me tt i no need to pay lar.. but too bad i paid le.. then went down to the clinic at toa payoh.. i drave there ah... wat a long journey... then went there.. onli fill in 1 form.. listen to the person tok cok a bit.. blah blah blah.. then went down to jiaming's house.. slack around... then meet kaiqin at CWP to watch movie... thw show sux ah.. anyway... duno y dun like kaiqin more n more le.. tik he'd changed somehow.. quite self-centered... tik abt himself onli.. haiz... where has my old darling kaiqin gone??? wh today oso didnt chat wif me...anyway mel fetch me home fr lot 1.. sweeta.. haha.. so happy... his dad's car tis time... then he v funny ah.. when i wan to got down fr car.. he said:" like tt onli huh?" haha.. i know he wants a kiss fr me ah.. cannot mk it lar.. i'll onli kiss my bf.. then when home.. he smsed me.. saying he disappointed sia.. haha... then we chit chat on phone.. v sweet conversation.. haha.. anyway miss him sia..
Thursday, August 05, 2004
went temple wif mum n hao today, then complaint to mel tt i'm sick, still coughing. u know wat he reply?? " u keep telling me u not well, i duno wat to do.." pls lor.. ku ku.. where got ppl like tt reply one.. then i replied bac.. nvm lor, i dun tell u le.. then next sms he didnt even mention anytig abt my health le. . super bo xim.. cannot stand.. haiz..anyway today 1st lesson ah.. long Q when i reach... Q to tk notes... but i cut Q lar.. coz xuan they all in front mah.. haha.. sat wif dean n terry they all... know terry's gf today.. at last.. haha.. gentle gentle one.. then sharon teo sat wif us too... she changed a lot a lot sia.. cant recognise her... slim down a lot lor.. v chio chio now... lesson so sian.. restless man... then msg justin to kill boredom.. then at last 3 hrs past... tok cok wif xuan n her gang.. mum came n fetch me.. then reach home.. ate apple pie... v sian.. notig to do.. slp.. haha.. pig pig.. oink oink.. then mel msg.. wanna meet later to la kopi? but i wan to slp sia.. then didnt reply.. continue to slp.. oink oink.. then ard 7pm wakey to eat dinner.. then replied mel.. sis wanna me to acc her bac to NUS to do her 12hrs expt... so tml morning she can do the test.. NUS so happening at nite one... so crowded.. haa.. ended up didnt met mel.. he said met a while not "song".. anyway then slack all the way lor.. watch tv.. online.. chat wif many ppl.. a lot of ppl online ah... then mel said mb cannot acc me to watch fireworks on sunday le.. coz he's buddy bday.. but then he tik twice.. then said comfirm go wif me.. coz we said it since last wk... haha.. 1st tig he did correct man... actually v happy... but still act cool lor.. say wanna go for bday onot.. blah blah blah... actually is wanna go watch fireworks wif him one lar.. haha.. ku ku me... anyway still yet to comfirm... wh called me a late today.. didnt chat.. yesterday oso didnt chat... haiz.. anyway me coughing all the way ah.. sick sick.. haiz...
Tuesday, August 03, 2004
today.. actually wanna wakey at 8am.. but couldnt wakey ah. mel's morning call no use one.. coz i haven touch my music theory hw mah.. 11am piano lesson... can register for theroy test le.. so happi.. anyway then rot at home sia.. sian.. online.. asked mel wanna go swim onot.. then kana rejected.. still say can compensate on other tigs? ku ku.. ended up met weiling for a swim.. i was late sia.. the sickening bus dun wan to come.. but she oso didnt wait v long lar.. coz i told her i'll be late b4hand.. not bad... quite enjoying the swimming.. can see patrick.. i used hp to snap pic of him somemore.. haha.. my dream guy sia.. haiz... too bad i know how to swim.. anyway then reached home.. makan dinner... online.. chat wif ppl.. chat wif mel.. notig much happened today.. i wrote his testi.. he wrote my testi.. he wanna know my blog add ah.. then i dun wan to tell him.. then dare him.. kiss me then i'll let him know the add.. haha.. he comfirm dun dare one lar.. he dun even dare to touch me.. ku ku lar.. anyway.. he went to slp le.. i tik i oso slping soon.. still sick.. but justin online le.. wanna tok to him... juan n mei mei oso online.. haha.. tata~
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tis pic got special effect one orh.. coz got vapour on the lens mah.. then dreamy dreamy like tt.. haha.. taken outside wisma...
yesterday went for singing section wif my odac og freshies.. haha... fun sia.. we're like having live concert.. haha.. but not all present lar.. terry, vicki, sean, winnie and marilyn didnt go.. anyway got at one pt of time lewis called to find dean... damn funny sia.. dean asked me to answer the call.. lewis kept wanting to tok to dean.. then i asked wat he wans fr him.. haha.. then he couldnt recognise my voice!! haha.. then i keep asking asking.. then he cannot tahan.. then he put down phone.. haha.. really blur sotong leh.. v fun..
anyway heard sean n terry joined them for dinner.. i didnt go dinner wif them n left early coz.... I MET MEL.. haha.. fr his work place to town super fast sia.. felt tt he's not v happy leh.. anyway he bought 2 fila t-shirts.. not bad.. bought size M.. i shall remember..then walk ard wisma.. then actually tgt of buying a pair of new bikini.. although i got like..2 le.. aiya.. tgt of buying new pattern one mah.. then when i enter the shop.. wow.. he's reaction quite big sia.. not used to it lar.. so we left without even seeing.. haiz.. anyway saw beiwen.. haha.. then asked her how she tik abt mel in front him.. then she said.. ok ok lor.. haha.. tok cok lar.. then we had dinner.. he paid again.. everytime go out wif him i no need to pay one.. paiseh sia.. anyway.. then i kana choked... he liked super lost lor.. haha.. faster go dig tissue for me.. anyway tt is wat i wanted most lar... notig much... went home... saw danni at busstop... she never change ah.. still slacking as usual.. failed 5 modules in the 1st yr... power ah.. then we dropped at CC busstop there n walk home.. he kept tiking abt he's chu lian.. haha.. damn sian lor.. anyway walk walk walk... then we went to his condo pool side to chat.. juz enjoying chatting wif him...tok cok.. cok cok cok... then go home at ard 11pm.. he walk me home.. but it's onli a 5 mins walk lor.. but on the way... i got a surge to cling on him sia.. then i endure endure.. but ended i cling lar.. but tt time onli left 2.5 mins fr home.. haha..power sia.. i eat his tofu..haha.. reach home.. coz he said he need to shower then can tik though tigs mah..
ened up my sis using pc.. cannot online.. but we chat on phone.. tok cok again.. then when tok abt our relationship.. he asked" so.. wat's our status??" ku ku lor.. he tik so easy can have me as gf?!?! i told him tis too.. muz formal formal one ma.. but i dun tik will be so soon lar.. still got wh.. anyway now our status is "dating partners" haha.. ku ku lor.. but ok lar.. at least i got somebody to date.. but we got terms n conditions one.. we can onli fix to each other.. no 2nd dating partner.. haha.. 1st time i got dating partner sia.. haha.. ku ku... diao diao..
weihwa came to my house tis morning... i haven wakey.. he waited for me almost 1 hr until my mum nagged at me... anyway.. as usual... we went lot 1 ...tok n laugh.. n eat... but didnt hold hand everytig le... i tik more n more not close le.. it's obvious anyway... then he went to help his parents to move house.. at toa payoh... bradder there.. i went home myself.. long time didnt went home myself when i went out wif him le... really long long long... coz he'll always send me home one.. anyway home le.. then kana forced to go malaysia wif my family.. so sian.. i sat in front of tv whole day at my uncle's house.. super sian lor.. duno ask all of us go for wat.. anyway... wh still got msg me when he reach pasir ris n when he's on ferry.. still say miss me sia.. ya.. CK msged me too.. but tis time is ask me whether got miss him onot.. but i didnt reply lar.. i'll onli reply 1/5 of his smses.. mb lesser than tt.. then behind oso got haiz.. he said sch is sian.. anyway mel waited for me to reach home then chat on msn.. we tok a lot of stuffs ah.. the most impt tig is... i asked him... "do u like me?" haha... i duno y recently i got tis kind of courage.. tt day oso asked casey.. but tt one is last time tigy.. tt one is.." last time u got like me onot?" koaz.. super BHB lor.. but i curious mah.. then casey said a bit.. haha.. anyway back to mel... then the answer quite positive lar.. but i duno how much he actually like me.. he so inexperience in relationship tigy.. anyway.. i told him i actually used him to forget wei.. n i said sry to him ah.. but he said he's cool wif it.. then i tik i'll try to fall in love wif him lar.. he not bad mah.. basically gd guy... n i got tell him tis lor.. basically i'm v open wif him lar.. duno where i got the courage.. i never have such courage.. haiz.. i've changed.... anyway.. we had a exciting conversation... tml meeting him.. so excited..
Monday, August 02, 2004
ended up didnt stay for the party.. all the parents didnt stay... met mel for a movie at JP.. juan n gang went to JP too... had plot wif juan.. haha.. so exciting.. haha.. shld see hua's sian1/2 way face when she saw me.. haha... actually is sian all the way le... anyway.. really exciting tt time.. anyway watched i robot wif mel.. ok lar.. nice show.. but felt damn unwell... then we went to walk walk.. saw juan they all again.. they started teasing us.. juan oso join them... like so happy like tt.. haha..anyway went supermarket.. bought water, blah blah.. n 2 yan yans.. haha... he at first suggest wanna go playgound eat.. romantic sia.. but he see me like so unwell.. haiz... we took 172 home.. then i got lied on his shoudler leh... i got excuse one la.. coz i really unwell.. sereve headache sia.. but ok lar.. still prefer wei's one.. coz more meat... hee hee...anyway.. onli juan will read.. coz until now.. onli juan know this url... haha.. juan.. how r u??? diao diao.. ku ku... anyway... like tt lor.. haiz... ended up wei know i went out wif him.. like tt lor..
Sunday, August 01, 2004
at last.. i called him myself.. worried abt him.. haiz.. i still say dun love him... i duno wat i wan.. he's fine.. juz taken airforce duno wat test... y didnt he call me last nite??? y didnt he call me when he reach s'pore?? y not even a single msg to me??? why why why.... not going to ask him.. no power... not his gf now anyway... i dun wan him to ask me so many why too... feeling so unwell now.. mel offered to acc me see doctor.. come on~~ i'm a strong ger... physically quite strong... will be fine after sometimes.. lewis juz msg me a ku ku msg... saying know i cried when watching brotherhood yesterday... he said coz i imagined weihwa is the cast... SUPER WU LIAO LOR.... duno y he so boliao at times.. he shld be having the national mgt competition now.. anyway later most prop meeting mel again... i didnt tell wei.. onli told him i acc my bro to danson's bday party... anyway... need to get change now.. going to the party..tata~