haiz.. time now:5.34am...

not tt i had not been slping.. is tt i lied on bed for the whole nite liao.. cant slp... reason?
lying on the floor for 3 to 4 hrs.. cant slp... coz pain pain... when abt to doze off... my bro cough n cough n cough...
then i move up to bed wif mum... ya.. i was in my mum's room... eyes opened big big for almost 1hr...
now here i am....

reason for being in my mum's room>>> my dad's in KL... tml nite then come back~

today.. better to say yesterday... didnt study again... have not been studying recently.. i'm really really really preparing for the worst liao... well.. all my friends ard seems to tik tt i'm ok one lar.. but then... i'm really really really not studying.. how?

i cant study at home... but i lazy to go out... actually meeting jiaming to study @ wlds.. but last min he shoot me aeroplane.. he gonna study wif the ger he's wooing now.. so... is the reason valid? to some... it may... coz.. my fren's future is more impt? he likes the girl.. so i must let him to have every chance to be wif the ger.. ?? grr... i'm not happy abt it lor... how can u treat me like tt...then in the first place.. it's u r the one who asked me to study wif u one... u know i wont study at home... fine...

anyway.. he called just now to ask me whether wanna study today... i mean later.. he was still wif the girl... i knew he wants to study wif her.. but he guilty onli mah..

me: " u not going to study wif her meh?"
him: " no lar... u more impt.. don't care abt her.."

well.. y he said tt? coz he's in front of the ger mah.. put on show onli... the ger oso like him lar anyway.. i mean fr wat he told me... v v v v positive abt it.. then i oso free free read their smses.. i oso tik tis r/s is sure onz one.... anyways....

NG JIAMING... IS THIS THE WAY U TREAT UR FREN?????

anyway say loud loud here oso no use... coz he wont be reading it.. oh ya.. continue to conversation...

me: " nvm lar.. u study wif her lor.. i can study wif my frenz"
him: " r u sure onot? u gonna study wif ur frenz?"
can sense he's smiling... me: " ya.. gonna study wif frenz..."

cok...

i tik tml i no need to study again... everytime i wanna study.. my mum always got all sorts of reasons to let me stay... for eg.. just now in the daytime...

me:" i wan to go to sch to study.."
mum:" we go to send dad off together lar... "

fine.. ok.. so after sending him off...

me: " i wan to go sch..."
mum: " so late liao.. go sch for wat? dont go already lar..."
me: " then tml i'm going to sch early in the morning..."
mum:" uh... cannot lar.. i got yoga in the morning.. then kanghao got spelling.. u must let him learn his spelling.. then he got his chinese oral too... teach him"

fine.. he's spelling v impt??? he's actual spelling test is on 5/5/05 lor... the out of 20 he already know 10... so kan chiong for wat? so wat his class teacher give them everyday fr now for them to practice?? it's onli practice!!!!

so.. my bro pri2 SA is more impt then my finals?? so if i fail my finals... at tis rate... comfirm fail... u're the one who's going to pay for my sch fee.. dont complain so much later.. u're not giving me chance to study... if i just go ahead n study.. u'll always say i'm selfish.. didnt care for family .. didnt care for ur bro... then how??? then how abt my own life????

later bee n juan wanna go sing ktv.. gd lor.. i no need to study again... COMFIRM no need to study... morning to afternoon... teach hao.. then afternoon... i comfirm slp lor.. now cant slp... fine.. i'll do some reading after finish my blog..then nite sing KTV... then near midnight.. going to airport to fetch my dad... sure non of my siblings will wan to acc my mum go one lor.. left onli me...

bee n juan... i really dont feel like going leh.. but i know i'll miss out a lot of fun.. n i miss u all dearly... haiz.. but then... i surely will appear one lar..

koaz... wat am i saying???