today is sunday... mel really didnt contact me... he wasn't really to face me.. he kept appearing into my mind.. now then i know how weiwei felt when i dun wan him.. i can feel the pain... the emptiness inside the heart... tgt of him almost evert moment... i tik he still go n put curtain inside he's room, duno izzit tt i tik too much, if it's really so, i'll be damn disappointed wif him...

i'm tiking... why izzit tt he's so mean? suddenly push me into the cold castle.. so sudden.. without any warning... if onli i tok to him on phone on thurs nite.. dun tik we'll be in tis situation... miss him so much.. but yet hate him so much..

went out to have dinner wif parents.. went JE.. i kept looking amough the crowd.. hope i can see him.. so stupid n naive of me... tgt i dun have feeling for him.. am i wrong? wat am i going to do if he msg me one day? he said he will... am i going to reply? i'm so lost now... really miss him a lot... keep looking out for him fr my window.... he's aslp now...

tml going for the seals sports training.. will last the whole day cum the briefing.. hope i'll put him behind my mind... tis wk will be a bz one.. got camps n chalets.. i'm looking fdw for them... a great chance to aid me... to fill the emptiness... and to forget him.....