today... wakey late... then eat breakfast... slack ard.. then go lot 1 wif parents n sis to delifrance to eat lunch.. nicey nicey... then met mel to ECP to watch fireworks.. after spending abt 2 hrs.. we finally reached there... makan.. then we rent bike to cycle.. 8-10pm.. we cycle until the v end... koaz.. u know wat? cycle the wrong way lor.. cannot see fireworks.. ku ku lar.. see onli a bit bit.. really is a bit bit onli.. coz kana blocked by trees le.. anyway... we sit at the jetty there.. blow wind.. really enjoy the quiet moment wif him... then saw the neo-cards he took wif he's ex gf.. she looks v young lor.. anyway i forgot how old is she le.. slack ard.. then we cycle bac... walk walk a bit.. then find a spot to sit now.. how i wish he will like put his hands ard me or wat... haiz.. but he didnt lar.. then finally i asked him.. y izzit always i am the one who initiate to hold him.. then he said it's not rite lor.. blah blah blah.. then suddenly he told me actually he dun wish to have relationship for the time being.. at 1st duno how to react ah... but then when i tik twice.. i oso got told myslef wun get into relationship so soon.. i told him tis lor.. at tt time.. mind still blank blank.. but now suddenly a lots of tgts rushing in... " doesn it means he dun like me fr the start? if like, y wouldn't want a relationship wif me?" " everytig i did are wasted lor.. i'm really trying to like him leh... " blah blah blah... suddenly realise it's quite unfair.. i tgt all along we'll have chance to be together.. but wat to do? dream shattered le ... anyway i oso dun wan to have commitment.. haiz.. contridicting.. anyway.. then we fool ard.. play ard... then tk cab home lor.. the journey home is so sweet... we keep holding hands.. then he wanna to read my blog so much.. then gave me a peck on my cheek.. cannot actually feel it though.. haha.. too fast n sudden... then he said he feel like kiss me leh or rather wanna me to kiss him back.... but it's against my principal leh.. anyway since he dun wan to have relationship wif me... y kiss? aiya.. then i dun wan dun wan.. until reach home le. haha.. but in the end gues wat? i gave him a kiss haha.. too fast he complaint.. but cannot lar.. scare my parents n neighbours see.. so paiseh.. at tt moment.. we're so much like a couple.. yet we're not.. i duno wat i wan.. n i duno wat he wants.. but nevertheless... today is a enjoyable one.. sweetie sweetie day... n opps.. i did sometig against my principle.. somemore he's not my potential le.. haiz.. happy or sad? i duno.................. everytig is gone.... dun tik too much... juz live on.......... try enjoy every moment wif him b4 he sian ba...